Week 12 Semester 2

Hi,

its been a busy time, and a long time since i posted. I have been busy with far too many things.

1) Leap
2) Samba Masala
3) School

1) I have stopped work with Leap for a while as I cannot handle in conjunction with school work. The nature of the work they delegate to me.. So ad hoc, so last minute.. Siao ah.. No way i'll do it.


2) Samba has been great, its always great to enjoy the music. However, some things to note. Ears are spoilt, clearly. Nothing seems to be too loud now. Die... Also, hands have stop hurting since.. Some time ago.. I was drumming on my calf randomly, one day. *Barravento groove* Ouch... my leg hurt leh?!?!?!? hahaha.. repinique training is cool, we learn to play with sticks and hand, with whistle blowing etc. Funniest memory, at previous repi prac when we were learning whistling at the right timing and I couldnt get it, I ACTUALLY GOT ANGRY. hahaha i think i was being impatient with myself for not getting it.. OH WELL. Its been too long since I raged anyway. Sorry to anyone on the receiving end!!! xD Band dynamics are changing. I'll always be amazed by Agurz, cuz he is one in a million old man with a young kid inside and a heart of gold. Steady, funny, sharp. He epitomises why I think people who take longer routes did not "waste time", but rather each has a different lesson to learn. All these experiences shape us to be, us. Looking forward to learning more about the different layers in people around me, as well as the occurrence of some coconuts(hollow inside) maybe?


3) School has been insane. 2 Exam semesters with 4.5 modules are not funny. The amount of reports etc... sigh. Here I am blogging about it. Besides that, in class, some people simply stand out more.. Why is that?! Still trying to figure it out....

Some people who caught my attention:
Charles Chen, TWC
Sliv, TWC
Daniel, BIs Law
These are people who ask precise questions and give interesting comments. I like these people. I think these are the sorts you have conversation with.. Haha, but Im trying to be open to all. and not be exclusive!

Musings after sem 1, before Penang trip

Hi world, I am a happy boy. I have learnt much about myself over the past half a year. I have learnt much in half a year as well. Did I do well in school? Maybe. It doesnt affect me that much. Is it a good thing? To me, I treasure the education, the process over the grade. Our degree lasts only 6 years on graduation, apparently. After that, its all about job experience. I dont know... One way to find out, right? On a separate note, it IS pretty happening.. Samba is having performances, Christmas parties. Outside, I go on alcohol parties, meeting friends, meeting new people, knowing more people better. Its been a week after my last paper. There was no great feeling of ecstasy, just felt lost. Haha irony. I am also looking forward to meeting up with my friends. Some people i got to know so much better are Yvonne, Jeremy, Ezra, En Qi, Abdullah. And they seem to enjoy my company too. Its cool like that I guess. Learning how to manage self image as well. Trying to pull many things off with finesse. It takes effort, and money as well. I hope I dont spend too much of my parents' money too :( A side note, I GOT INTO PROJECT HUE HOPE 3 WITH ABZ. Awesome. Made my day some days ago.. To go with some friends.. WHEEEEEEE Just went on a short day trip to JB with Zili.. She turned many heads today! Haha I need to buck up, turn more heads than her!!!! HAHA. self improvement, comeon! Jokes aside, it was great to have a proper conversation with her with everything out of the way. Data plan off, no whatsapp, no emails, no bullshit. Enjoying the moment by savouring what I have, I am enjoying life's simple pleasures.

Week 7- Hell week

thefakeSMU "Its Week 7 - Time for you to die"

Week 7 is coming with Econs test and Stats151 test coming on Thu and Sat respectively. Shag, but cant seem to get my system going this week. Not sure why. Gotta buck up!

1) Samba Masala:
Learned Samba Reggae, great fun. Learning Funk, a new groove now.. Skill and practice required.. At least, its what I look forward to now... I'm glad..

2) Job
Maybe its coming? Maybe not? Haha... Lets wait and see what happens..

3) Business opportunity
Friend random msg me, ask me if im interested in doing a business.. I'm not sure why I agreed to meet up with her.. Let's see how it goes this Sun!

4) Badminton
Been talking to Marc lately. He might continue playing badminton after all.. Makes me feel like I wanna play again too..

5) Random emo
Randomly think if when I was 6, I wrote a letter to Hilda Yeoh.. She was the younger sister of Hazel, classmate of Stephanie. Stephanie is my cousin. Passed the letter to Hilda through Steph.. I wrote something that went like this "Hi Hilda, can we be friends? Meet me at the basketball court during recess..." Haha.....

 I remember... the day we were supposed to meet.. Met Hilda's mom and her at the zebra crossing..


Hilda's mom: "Meet at the zebra crossing can already! No need to meet at the basketball court! (cheekily)"

Me: *embarrassed*

Eventually.. I chickened out.. Hilda followed me for the whole of recess.. But I did not approach her, because I was shy.... Not exactly the cutest scenario it could have turned out to be, but it still brings a smile to my face...

Then there are days, I remember, that its nice to have someone.. :)

Break from Party week

Hi guys, life has been great... In summary..
1) Paintball @ Johor
2) Quantitative Finance?
3) Yellowcard Concert
4) Swee Choon
5) Bloomberg Introduction Course
6) Samba Masala

1) One weekend, went to Johor with SMU Xtremist event with FTB Friends to paintball! it was rather cool cuz some peeps from SICS camp were there as well! haha.. rainy day but oh well, paintball was cheap, seafood was GREAT. company was great. No complaints, really. $50 for painball and transportation, $25 for seafood. We ordered like starving kings. #onlyoverseas

2) went for a talk on QF. I was one of the few year ones there.. Sounds like... QF is such a pain. AND, despite the difficulty in learning, I just got a feeling that you might not be that recognised for your work! Talked to a random other year 1 girl who looked so lost at the QF talk.. Interesting.. it's nice to talk to random people, makes my day, not sure why.

3) Went to Hard Rock Hotel @ Sentosa for a concert by Yellowcard.. Good mix of songs over the 4-5 albums they have.. Ended with a BANG!

The last song was.
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Ocean Avenue
T_T SO MANY MEMORIES. wonderful song, wonderful memories, wonderful friends.
I know that I was able to go for this concert because of some problems between friends, but I thought since I was there.. I should have a good time and show Zili a good time as well. heh. Hope my friend understands. The thing is... They both have their own valid points of view.. Its just very abrasive in nature, their r/s at this point of time.. I think that a break would do both of them ALOT of good, even though it might be painful...

4) Swee Choon was intended to be ORD Celebration for Abdullah, FTB friend. BUT he couldnt make it, cause of his granddad fell ill. Oh well, better go.. It was great! Ordered wayyy too much again, and paid $20/ pax for the dimsum dinner! Went home with the neighbour Isabel. Had an orange juice since I felt unwell. Chemical rxn. Great food, great company, great workout in the toilet. I have no idea why. Shit, literal meaning.

5) Went for a Bloomberg introduction course at Capital Square. Bloomberg LP. Wonderful place. Dualscreen system with 4 windows running concurrently, excel sheet exporting functionality, real time news updating. A powerful tool for any trader out there who needs information. Incredible. So after a long day of staring at not ONE but TWO screens, Bloomberg Executives have the luxury of a FANTASTIC pantry where its fully stocked with can drinks, coffee machine, meiji milk, prawn crackers, chocolates, dried fruits. Holy shit it should come with a store assistant?! anyway it was a great eye opener for me. Talked to a random year 4. Went to have sth to eat with her. Interesting, everyone is probably everyone's third degree friend! Girl from BLSS, cousin of Justin Ong BLSS! haha! was she into me? I dont know.. Just enjoy the conversation, move on.

6) Got into Samba Masala! Not as hyped up as some friends, but I am certainly happy to be selected to play my instrument of choice! Timbal!! Hand drums with many off beats. THe most GL instrument in the whole band with solo-ing opportunities wooohoooooo! I CAN BE A STAR HEHE.

Clubbing and all with friends as well. Holy shit, uni life is no joke. Bloody happening please.

Nearly 1 month in school

It's not been easy, really.. but its the way its supposed to be..

After all.. if not for army, I'll be in year 3, looking for a job in HSBC career talks instead of looking out for HSBC Student Ambassador Internships. Ran into friend from Nan Hua, Jun Wen.. Had dinner together somehow.. Had lunch with Wei Jie about 3 months ago as well.. They changed so much.. for the better. I need to do better! Time. To. Fly.

Friends eg Marcus, Team Others in crisis.. but.. things will get better.. The storms will pass, just like how they did with J. Not what I wanted nor expected, but the storms passed, and it was good for me. I don't blame her, neither should the people in context feel injustice. Its the human factor.. No right/ wrongs.. Just timing, miscommunication or even the corny.... fate.

Time... is really like a womanz boobz? As long as u SQUEEZE hard enough, there will be some.. Keep fighting! I hope to grow to become an intelligent, adaptive, humble man, with a heart. Let's see what happens!

Camps camps and more camps

I've been to 4 camps so far! and its been a busy period after the whole episode with Jasmine.

4 waves of people from: Sports Camp, Freshman Team Building, Special Interests and Community Service as well as SMU Xtremists. Different cultures, different people, different feeling!

Sports camp people are the most energetic and crazy. However also the most superficial. hmm.

Freshmen Team Building kids are a good mix, but only half the group left. Half of half of the group I like. heh. Oh well!

SICS kids are more chill. No hardcore activities, just enjoying each others' company and getting to know one another better. Met some interesting people, watched the group dynamics. From HTHT to HPHP, the variance and variety is quite impressive.

Xtremists are like family. You dont have to be awesome, they all just wanna have fun, together. I like that.. Not as much.. Innuendo and complications..

The difference between all these groups are quite stark tho. IDK what kind of impression I give these people, and how I might have changed since the past. But i know everything that has happened since, has shaped me. I am the same guy, but my experiences are just not the same.

My one sincere prayer, is that I don't lose track of myself!

Ex Gf Day

Today. A special day.

In summary: The Car Ride, Cycling, Stopping by Bedok Jetty, going to Burger King for a meal, Sitting by the Bench at East Coast to talk, Dinner at Saizeriya, The Dropoff.

The Car Ride:
Hi J, its been a long time. Glad we're going out to East Coast Park today. You're late tho. We were supposed to meet at 12plus. Its 1plus. Terrible.

Stopping By Bedok Jetty:
We talked about.. Your results, how you've been doing, your friends, plans after graduation, graduation trips and if there are any new guys coming along. Hmm... Recently busy.. Following the plans of friends.. "Im a very good follower!"

Burger King for a meal:
We shared a meal cause it would be too filling. We had Iced Latte. Talked about more things.

Sitting by the Bench at East Coast to talk:
We talked about, any girls in my life? Any guys in yours? Share leh? You know them for a month approx. We talked about the past. What happened? Nth apparently. It just didnt feel right. True, and you didnt drop the bomb the right way, which I deserve, true. We agreed. Good. Your family is different. Your mom only asked if you are still going out with me.. Then I asked, when you dropped the bomb, was it the end? You said yes, we were both confused. So I asked again, (putting my hand upon your shoulder) Would I ever get to hold you like this again?

No.

Okay, lets go for dinner.

Dinner at Saizeriya:
We had cheap italian japanese food, over which we discussed the payback rate of my SMU fees. I am Thankful. You paid for the meal, after I paid for the days' expenses. I am impressed. You also gave me a belated birthday present. A pen. I am impressed.

Walked to the car:
Wanted to hug you for a last time. Mission aborted. Arranged to meet B, and you kindly sent me there.

The Dropoff:
Me "One last thing to ask you"
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Me "J, did you enjoy yourself?"
"Yes ah"
Me "Okay.."
       "......."
       "Can I hug you before I go?"
"Why leh"
Me "Yin1 Wei4 Wo3 Nian4 Jiu4" (because. I miss the past.)
"Okay"
Me "(Emotionally overwhelmed)"

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Talked to B.
Move on? Get J back?
Decide, and move.