Crests and Troughs

Its been awhile.

(5-8 Jun 2012)

I've been to Bangkok, Phuket and back. All within 4D3N. Watched the Cabaret Show, did water parachuting, walk around with mom etc. Enjoyable trip nonetheless, even though with family, we can do less. But each group has their own purpose to fufil. And I am glad that this trip happened. Bought 5 shirts, which I need. Time to pick up some skills in terms of, ahem, 'packaging' huh.. haha.

WRT Orientation Camps, I am excited. I cannot wait to see what happens. To see the interactions and mixes between ages, to see the chemistry, awkwardness all around. And I am right smack in the midst of it! To see what sort of people I will see around, to get to the next phase.

Yet I am in no hurry... I have been clubbing with friends here and there, meeting up with Bryan and co, Marcus, Yi Fang, Army friends, Zili and gang, JC Clique Choon Guan and Co. Wow. seems like a whole lot of people. Not to mention spending some time with the Green Bean gang. Great to see everyone again. To have this transition period, to think to wander, to wonder.

Conversations, strengthened friendships proper conversations, improper conversations. All of it, is important. They make up who we become, some way or another. "In Limbo" is not really a waste of time. It is what you make it to be.

Yet another talk with Bryan. He's in the army phase, I am in the pre Uni phase. Yet we are able to come together to talk about things, which we suddenly can relate to in many ways.

Yap, my teacher from Green Bean told me before... He thought that Jasmine left cause I did not tell her what I wanted. I could not completely comprehend, yet Bryan did. And apparently B&T took about 2 years to learn the simple things. What seemed crystal clear to Bryan, might just be confusing to Ting! Now that I say it, it seems really simple. But when you are there, in that scenario, all the emotions, all the closeness. Yet some essential differences remain. We all need reminders sometimes. And I'm glad I talk to Yap... He teaches me too much... Totally enjoy conversation with Bryan, and the same goes for him. Hah.

In today's context.. I guess not too many guys have as simple a r/s as me and Bryan..... Just saying. And I sure as hell am proud of it.

I'm excited for Jin Hong to go to army, to see how he will grow, mature and become the man he could be to the people that matter to him, and vice versa. So much potential, so much regret. I understand, I empathise, yet I know he needs to keep struggling and going. How to say....

Just say what I can, at the right time. Minimal friction, maximum effort, ideally. Hahah, time to hone my skills of sensitivity+EQ+wisdom.....

After everything.... I am thankful for all that happened.... ALL. Everything. Including you, Jasmine. But I guess we were indeed.. Not meant to be. Let us take the hints from nature. Time to move on, even though I am sentimental, contrary to popular belief.... haha :) Great to rant once in a while ^^